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PEACE....

PEACE....what does it really mean? Peace means no struggles no harms no worries for the next upcoming seconds for anyone out there. But for me peace,it's really a hard word to make me understand and accept the definition. Who can promise to whom, to give a peace for your heart or even peace in mind? Can you? Can he? Can she? Or can they do so? Who can do it?

PEACE is a freedom,but peace also bringing no freedom. BUT for sure peace it brings promises to everyone. Now only I noticed that peace can bring and can commit promises. Just don't know the promise can be trusted or not only. Who might know about it?? Only the person who make it, he or she will only knows.

For me,a promise is made and it should be fulfilled and bring it to be true. I very seldom to make a promise to anyone,unless I willing to do so for nothing in return. And I had noticed that a simple promise really can bring a big changes either in the good way or bad way. Just depends how you justify it by your ownself.

I willing to give a peace and also promises with my true heart to that person,this peace and promises I made is to show my sincerity towards this person I make. Will my sincerity touched you? Will my promises that I made, you trusted on me? Will my promises brings you peace in mind being with me? How can I show it to you to proof that I'm changing and entering to your inner door? Can you lead me to the way?   

Mid of da dawn.....of 5th June 2008 4.18am. 

I wanna shout out LOUD...

oh god....i really wanna find a place to shout out LOUD from my inner heart till my throat it's broken...!!  i can't even breathe even a single seconds from now on....

i had enough to bear on my shoulder..! all i need juz a little freedom n a little choice in my life...couldn't i have it even in a little space of my own????

Ahhhhhh....................................!!!!!!!! is it this the only place that i can express myself??? AAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhh....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm really struggle, struggle in everything that i'm doing n thinking..... i seems like losing myself, losing everythings till there's nothing is belong to my own....

juz wish when i needed help...hopes there's really a hand that appear in front.....of me...

my last 3 days...i noticed...

there's only left 3 more days i'll be finish my servicing to my used car company...as an "admin"...when the days are counting down, i noticed that i'm no longer important in the company.

it means when a person who needs ur help they really will come towards to u n ask to help them. but when they no longer need ur help, u will seem like being dumped into a very deep well.no matter how loud u shout, no matter how many efforts u put, they will not aprreciate ur kindness n ur helpness for them. this is what i learned in the society in the past year..... i may think that these kind of socities had lost their sincerity in treating another ppl... (sigh¬)

have u ever think that....."when u treat somebody with 100% that comes from ur heart, never ever think to takes back 100% from other ppl.." (it's terrible hard to get ever 10% hahaha...)

being in the society, juz give wat ever u can! if u can get back 100%, i congrates u..! b'coz u really found urself with the 100% true ppl in the society..

TRY TO THINK OF IT..! WHAT SHOULD WE DO WHEN WE STEP INTO THE SOCIETY....

一个人

人啊，真是很奇怪的

他们在的时候，我却不会珍惜他们。

而我在的时候，他们却不会珍惜我。

原来我发现我身边的朋友是越来越少了。

是什么时候我的朋友一个又一个少了？

难道现在的人都忙疯了吗？

人是会长大，思想也肯定会变。

世界上的事物有什么不会变？

每一份每一秒每个人都在变。

那我呢？是否也在变着吗？

我觉得我已停在我自己的时空里。

我依然是在变而不变的状态里。

所以我就感觉到朋友们很陌生。

其实朋友是从很陌生变得很熟识，

但是在我身傍的朋友却变得很陌生。

可以说的是，“跟朋友在一起是很近的，

但是人与人的距离却是离得很远了”。

“话题也越来越少了，距离就越远”。

而我，就却变了剩下我一个人。

survive or not?

people say life is kinda of a challenging thing. but how come my life seems very bored no colors at all...getting less challenging less spirit to stay alive...people fight very hard to survive even try harder to take a deep breathe.... but now i seems like going to giving up everything of myself...sometimes i really noticed that me not like me anymore.

sometimes i think that i'm a the kind of easy taking n easy going person somemore a happy person...~~haha~~...as time really passby..in my mind all i wanna do is giving up everything in my life....i feels hard to survive. this kind of feeling putting me down when i think of my life...from the first seconds first minute first day of 2006... i had never been happy till today...~~this kind of feeling really sucks..!i hates it..!!

人在这个世界里活着是有意义吗？人呼吸是为了要活下去。。。而我的人生是为了什么而活？

想通了吗？

如果一段感情出了问题。。。要怎么去解决呢？

问题是要两个人去面对，而不是一个人去面对问题。如果感情出了问题，只是一方面去补救的话。。。

哪那一个人就会觉得很辛苦很累。

她会想，“为什么每一次都是我一个人去补救那一段感情？”

“我不是介意我付出得多或少。。。我知道感情是不能拿来做比较。”

“但是为什么只是我一个人去补救那段感情？ 如果问题出现了，可以肯定地说，不是一方面的错。是两个人都有错，是应该双方出解决问题。”

这就是所谓的感情。

“面对”和“逃避” 这四个字是属于哪一个人呢？问问你自己的良心到底你是哪一类的人。

一个肯面对的人，他知道，他的人生是活在现实世界里而不是活在梦里。

不管在面对什么问题时，或会遇到什么情况也好；他都会自己一个人去面对。

他不会很容易放弃而他会坚持到底想尽方法直到问题解决为止。

一个选着逃避的人，他知道问题是不能够解决得了。他选着放弃。

他不敢尝试想办法解决问题。而借口就是他唯一的好方法去解决问题。越多的借口就会闹得更多问题出现。这不是一个解决问题的出路而是死路。

为何要选着一条死路而不选一条出路呢？

人生生存在这个世界里，就是为了活着。

为什么生存在这个世界里，要想着死？

人是能活得多姿多彩。

truthness....

there's a down feeling grow inside my heart in this few days.... i was thinking is it "friend" really exist when u really need them....or u juz wish either one of them will come towards to you and give u a helping hand to help u out.... but how come it never happen on me? if i really shouted out for HELP...will there a person to stand out and help or give a warm hand to hold me up?

i know sometimes ppl will behave selfish to get more advantage... but do we really need to be so selfish every time every seconds? tell me where is the truth faces of each ppl? is it being hidden or being burried?

as i know so far...it is really hard to get or find a truth friend with his or her true heart......it's really less and lesser.....